júlia navarro
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I want everything to go wrong
I’ve been thinking for a while now that the solution to all my problems would be for things to get worse. Making decisions is incredibly difficult, especially when everything is going more or less fine. When everything is lukewarm. When there’s the occasional bad thing, but plenty of good things too. When it’s a compromise that is easy to accept. When nothing is amazing, but somehow everything wor…
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on how the idea of "what is right" has shaped my path
Since I was a little girl, I've been obsessed with the idea that at some point—just before I die, for instance—a man will appear to confirm everything that we, as humanity, know to be true, and give me the answers to everything we think we know but is actually wrong or has remained unproven. In other words, he will tell me what is right and what is wrong about the reason for things. He will give m…
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i am never going to become the person i want to be
I live with the constant feeling that I am never going to become the person I want to be, that I will never manage to do what I set out to do. It is a persistent sensation, devastatingly real, that I drag along with every step I take. It drains my will, it drains my energy, it makes me fall behind. And yet, here I am, hitting these stupid keys in a blank note I just opened because there is a small…